A mask to hide behind

My face,
a mask to hide behind,
when I cannot fully let myself cry,
wishes must be respect,
as I am expected,
with whole heart,
to let this pass,

Days in the sun,
by the beach,
as I watch her smile and laugh,
jump into a pool of clear water,
to swim full of joy,

she’s so innocent,
I look back at myself,
wishing for her not to go through my past hell,
thrusting forward into adulthood,
harsh realities,
the eventual crashendo,

I do not want that for her,

as I become older,
I take my place among the responsible,

what a horrible feeling,

im just sitting at my desk,
feeling,
uncomfortably numb,

but,
as a mum,
I just smile at her as best I can,

we’ve both lost a great man.

Advertisements

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s